PLEASANT SURPRISE

Second Monday of the week.

Well, I had a pleasant surprise at weigh-in this week. I thought I was going to have another flat week but I actually lost 1.2lbs! So I am officially down 22lbs even! 

I cleared out my drawers the other day. I was tired of not having any room to put away the clothes I always wear in favor of storing ancient clothes I never where. So, I cleared them all out. To my surprise, I collected 2, 13 gallon bags of clothes that were all too big for me! I did buy some new shorts and pants about a month ago since my usual clothes had gotten to big but I had no idea I had so many more big clothes. It was very liberating.

The cool part is even some of my shirts are starting to get too big. Wow. I can't wait till my body shape starts to change. As it is, I am smaller but I am still the same shape. Honestly, I feel like I

look like a sack of potatoes.

I want my lumps and bumps to go away so I look good in a bathing suit. A sack of potatoes, no matter the size, just doesn't look good in a bathing suit, lol.

I want my stupid boobs to shrink a cup size so I don't feel like a massive linebacker. Y'all that aren't overly endowed let me tell you something. Boobs that are too big can actually make you feel unfeminine. I feel like when I walk through a doorway my boobs are the first thing to enter followed by the rest of me at some point. BUT, I *think* my boobs may be starting to shrink. My bra is feeling a little looser. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. The day I get to buy a new bra will be a great day!

Sigh...but that is still quite a ways away. But, chin-up, it is on the way.

On the running side, running is definitely easier. It is regularly easier to move my body. This is exhilarating. I have gone running a lot, lately, while very tired, both mentally and physically. It has been getting pretty hot these days, too. Summer is definitely here. But I went out Monday and ran at 3:15 in the afternoon (I had to, it was the only opportunity). It was the heat of the day and I was so sleepy from a crappy night's sleep.

But you know what? I was still able to run without feeling like a lead balloon! That is so weird and new to me. I love it.  I am surprised and proud of myself for this run. I still keep thinking every time I go for a run I will feel like a lead balloon. I know that will happen at some point but I'm enjoying the feather footed feeling I'm experiencing.


Then there's this, what does it feel like to run at your ideal weight? I just can't wait to find out.

REIGNING IT IN

Monday.

Ok, time to reign it in. So, I kinda had a good and bad weigh in this week.

The good news is that I stayed utterly flat lined. Why is that good? Well, I sort of got too liberal and lax with my eating last week (that's not good...). I think the only reason I had any kind of good weigh in was because I upped my exercise a bit which balanced it out (which is good).

The bad news is that I stayed utterly flat. Same reasons.

So, if I'm going to lose the amount of weight I would like to before Hood to Coast Aug 24 then I need to realign myself and reign in the eating. I can do that.

I have just been lazy about preparing my own food. I need to just pony up the effort and do that. So, another week at 20.8lbs down. Oh, I think I need to make a correction on that. I think I said 20.2lbs in my previous post but it is 20.8. I'll take every oz I can get, lol.

Ok , let's see, The race is 10 weeks away. If...no, when...no, while I get back on track I need to lose 1.5lbs/wk average. That means 15 more lbs I could conceivably lose. I'd be down 35lbs. I think that still keeps me on track as per my original plans. I could go into that race at 144lbs. Cool!

I went out for a run this morning and decided to weigh AFTER that, lol. I was really surprised to see 157.2.  Usually, I see 158.something. Now, 157 is what I call my dehydrated weight. BUT, I have seen that number 3 times which means I'm flirting with more lbs down. I usually see a new number on the scale a couple times before it becomes official. I'm pretty excited by that. I even saw 156.something once. I need to really encourage that this week. I. WILL. NOT. MESS. UP! It would rock if I could get 2 lbs down this week. I could catch up a little from Flat Line World.

Two steps forward, one step back. I'll keep marching on.

TTFN

B&A

Actual Monday of the week.

Well, great news from WW. I am officially down 20.2lbs! I took a before and after comparison pic but I'm a little disappointed. You can see a difference but it is hardly noticeable to me. I see so many other people post 15, 20, 25lb before and afters and there is such a dramatic difference but there is no drama for me :-(. But I said I would post a B&A pic at 20lbs so I will.

Me minus 20lbs

So, here it is. I guess upon seeing here like this there is a bigger difference than I thought but still, I wish it were bigger. BUT, I'll take it! About 35 more to go. Gotta keep the glass half full rather than half empty!

I did get to buy new clothes last week. For the first time in a long time doing that was actually fun. I started at a size 16 and am now in a 12! To that end, the size 12 fits perfectly, not tight! Unfortunately 10s are a bit tight but I can actually get in them, lol. They resemble sausage casings when on but, none the less, they are on, lol!

Running, in general, has gotten easier. It just doesn't feel as hard to move my body. There are days when you go out to run and just feel like a lead balloon 'cause you're tired or something. I have had a couple of those days lately. But even on those days the quality of the drag-ass feeling is different. I still feel like I can move easier. It's weird. A good weird. These feeling and experiences are all new to me.

I was in Wal-Mart this weekend. I stopped in the sports section to look at some stuff. I saw the weights there and picked up 2 10lb weights and handed them to my daughter. "That's how much weight I've lost!" I told her. She was amazed. I took the weights and held them up straight over my head and walked around to see if I remember feeling like that when I was heavier. I can't say that I did but I was amazed at how much weight I felt bearing down on me. Wow...and I have 35 more to go! That's soooo much heaviness! How could I have been running marathons like that????

Well, I will post another B&A pic at -30lbs. Huh, I'll be on the flip side of the weight loss journey by then :-). I will have lost more than half of what I want to lose. I can't imagine that. I can't wait!!!

TTFN